Indescribable gift!

It seems I have gotten into the hustle and bustle of this season. Not only that, but I have been, well......let's just say I have been emotionally unstable for about a month now. I have let myself get too frantically involved into what I should get my kids, hubby, and family that I forgot the most precious gift of all. The birth of my Savior! Oh, and thank heaven for a Savior! Joseph and I watched the Nativity story last night on TV. I have heard the story many, many, times, but for some reason I watched it even more intently. Mary was chosen by God, she was found "favorable" in his eyes. I somehow couldn't stop to think if I, at this moment in time, was considered "worthy" or "favorable" by the way I have let this holiday season take over and forgotten what it truely means. As I watched scenes of the movie I couldn't help but think how Mary must have felt being young and pregnant, but with the Savior of the world!? Sitting there I felt my little baby kick inside me and I was immediately humbled, imagining how Mary must have felt, feeling the Savior of the world kick inside her. She knew ultimately of what would happen to him, but she embraced it. Thinking of how she must have felt, I lovingly grabbed my stomach and cradled it tight, then enthralled by the moment, grabbed Joe and gave him a hug. Could I be seen as favorable with God?
Mary had the King of the Kings born to her in a stable. A dirty, filthy stable! Somehow my mind kept thinking of how I look at my own life and wish, "if only I had this many square feet" but the Savior didn't mind. Jesus' whole life from the time of conception to his death tells the story of his humbleness and humanity. I'm so thankful for his life and the many valueable lessons He teaches me, if I take the time to listen. His life was full of sacrifice and humility. Not only is he our Savior but also our teacher. We can learn from Him on how to be lowly, meek, loving, humble and kind. Now, more than ever I feel the need of a Savior in my life and I'm in awe of this most precious, indescribable gift!! So, my gift to Christ this season is my heart. I want to please Him in every way that I can and I want my children to have this same hunger; and they do. After the movie last night Joseph looked up at me and said with tears in his eyes, "mom, this is such a beautiful story, I know I don't deserve His love, but that's why He came, huh?" and I looked back at him with the same tears in my eyes and I told him, "yep, that's what humanity needed."

I haven't written anything in a while, due to my inability to put two sentences together that make any sense. Plus, while my brain seems to be re-covering from the semester, it also has been overtaken by pregnancy hormones that seem to blow every little thing in my life way out of porportion. So for now, while I would love to blog about my life, pregnancy (yes, I'm excited), and other such news, I'm afraid I might say something that could be taken in a wrong way or just not make any sense at all. I would hate it if you thought I was really, in fact, retarted!

I hate celery

I'm sure glad that God looks at the heart and not the outside. I wish I could get my emotions under control, but alas, I'm human too. Love, where is your fire?